Pete's Log: incoherence at its fucking best

Entry #545, (Life in General)
(posted when I was 22 years old.)

blah. The plan: drink mountain dew, do stuff. Stay busy. I'm battling ssh on malloc. I've gotten utterly sick of openssh. It's worthless, in my HUMBLEST of opinions. So a process which I've done many times before is not working today. Download kth-krb4. Configure, compile, install. Download ssh 1.2.27, apply afs patch. Configure, compile, install. Why won't krb4 compile? Argh. Have to edit makefiles by hand. Man, don't I love it. Hopefully I'll get this figured out before too long. I think I finally got krb working. Now if only ssh would compile. Wait, something's happening. In the meanwhile, I'm working on more gsu stuff. People finally quit ignoring me it seems. Up until yesterday I was getting no response at all to my requests for information. It seems the gsu president doesn't even realize who I am or why it is in his best interest to answer my questions promptly and usefully. Thank God for Jo Blacketor being back in town. ssh finished compiling. make install. woohoo.

I didn't get much sleep last night. Tried to go to sleep at midnight. Didn't fall asleep until 2:30 or so. blah. insomnia sucks. Paul is teaching OS today. I'm considering ditching. I made a real dumbass move. I downloaded the p4 source local to realloc to work on it last night. Guess what I forgot to do? Yeah, upload it to afs so I could work on it today. I think I might skip social activities tonight. Go running soonish, go home so I can actually work on p4, clean the kitchen thoroughly, there's some items in the fridge that shouldn't be there any more. Maybe cook something good. Anyone up for stir fry? Food tastes better when shared. Fuckin' A. ssh with token passing works on malloc. how psyched am I, that took way too long.

Seems that Super Computing 2000 is gonna have a non-trivial effect on my life. (I think effect is the noun. affect is the verb. I should be able to remember this stuff). Brian's gonna be gone for a week, so I'm gonna be all alone at 2217 coachmans trail. Numerical's been cancelled next monday and wednesday. I'm probably gonna need to drive Brian to and from the airport.

"Your institutions are corrupt, your way of thinking sucks, we've had enough but our voices go unheard. and if we all screamed 'fuck the system' well it's just a dream if our actions never speak as loud as our words... louder than words" -- "Louder Than Words" by Against All Authority

Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to energy. Energy leads to productivy. Productivity leads to .... code.

I think today is one of them christian holidays. All souls day or All saints day or something. I think we used to get today off from school in germany, provided we went to mass. Or something like that.

Man, incoherent tired log entries are even scarier than incoherent drunken log entries. "i grab my skate, and catch some, i'm grinding my life away but i don't care, skating for me is more than a feeling....." SK8 Rock, AAA.